I always get a little sad this time of year...
There’s no sun (thanks, Obama). I eat too much (because Thanksgiving stuffing is a delicious gift from the gods). I’m stressed about finances (because I’m married to a tattooed, goateed, 6’2” eight-year-old-at-heart who wants “six small, four medium and one, maybe two, large gifts” - all wrapped in different paper - under the Christmas tree). And even with all the holiday parties and functions, there’s usually a little bit too much alone time for this raging extrovert as work winds down for the year.
This year it is especially rough because there’s that election thing that is still THE topic of conversation everywhere I turn and then there’s that thing where I quit my job, cashed in my retirement and put my very personal dream out into the world and, you know… BLEW UP every bit of security and stability I’ve ever known.
At least once (or eleventy-billion) times a day I have to remind my self that I’m not going to die fat, poor and alone. Well, maybe fat because… cherry cordial ice cream. (Heyyyyy Homemade, what up, boo? Call me!)
But poor and alone? Probably not.
At least once a day I also have to remind myself that it’s okay to feel a little blue this “most wonderful” time of the year when I am expected to be overcome with joy and gratitude. We don’t stop being who we are, with our own set of unique needs, just because there’s a holiday around the corner.
Are you like me?
If, like me, you’re feeling a little (or a lot) blue, or you’re facing a few shame triggers right now - there’s a line up at the SheHive the next couple days that is going to speak your language. Tonight we’re claiming our fears out loud and sending them off in a celebratory fashion at the Fear Funeral. Tomorrow our emotional eating support group meets for the first time and on Saturday, author/speaker Anna Oginsky, brings her Space to Grieve workshop to the SheHive.
And if, also like me, you’re in the mood for fun, celebration and gratitude - check out next week’s line up. We’re doing some improv, launching our Crafting and Cocktail series with a Gratitude Jar workshop and bringing the SheHive book club together for a second time. It’s going to be a blast!
I’m diving in to all of it because there is no rule that says we can’t be joyous, grateful and still a little afraid and sad. We are multifaceted, complicated, messy and beautiful in that way. And I love us for it. :)
Have a great week, SheHiver, and come out and see us soon! We welcome you - all parts of you - here.
With much love and gratitude,
Ursula Adams, MSPOD