On Monday I attended the Be Your Own Best Friend class at the SheHive led by Lisa Machala of The Collaborative Body. The purpose of the class was to help you replace your negative self-talk with self-leadership.
At one point in the class Lisa asked how we knew someone was our friend. I jotted down a few notes… a friend is someone who is kind to me, challenges me with love, laughs at my jokes, has long, brave talks with me and performs acts of service for me.
I stared at the page as tears started to well up in my eyes.
Most nights, after a full day of working for my corporate clients and taking care of my home and teaching whatever class I have lined up at the SheHive, the rest of the family goes to bed, and I settle in to my office to catch up on everything I didn’t have time - or energy - to do during the day. Stuff like answering emails, writing newsletters, and scheduling classes.
When the stay at home orders went into place, I sprung into action to do ALL the things that needed to be done. I built a home office. I worked with my team around-the-clock to move our classes online and to form SheHive LIVE. I created new schedules and bought things we needed to be at home. I was busy, busy, busy.
But, pretty soon, there was nothing left to do. There was nothing more to divert my attention from the fear of a global pandemic - no other way to try and control it. My energy began to wane and I found myself scared, overly-exhausted and empty.
From the conversations I've had with my circle, I know I wasn't alone. And it makes sense. The pattern is part of our biology - and our psychology.
Sometimes (rarely, but sometimes) I wake up before my Roomba, Drama Llama, who begins his daily sweep at 5:00 a.m. I’ll be sitting in the living room, relaxing, and Drama Llama will scare the hell out of me by announcing from the kitchen, with great and loud fanfare, that he’s about to commence THE CLEANING.
Do, do, DOOOOOOOO!
The last day I worked from anywhere other than my home was March 13th. And, like many, I’ve been living life in a holding pattern ever since… for 63 days. Save the hours I am committed to be online working for my corporate clients and the SheHive, I’ve been staying up late, napping when I want, eating whatever I want whenever I want, shopping on Amazon to pass the time when I’m not binge-watching everything on Hulu, Netflix and Amazon combined, and showering about every third day (if my husband is lucky).